This month I sat down for a chat with VC Associate member Laura Kabelka. One of the
younger Associate members, Laura gives a very reliving peek into her private world. We
discussed energy, theater, boyfriends, her goals and oh yea - her favorite flavor of ice
cream. What I found was a very dynamic, together young woman that has her head & her
heart in the right place.
LA.: Greetings Laura - welcome to this month's interview seat
Laura: Thanks LA, glad to be here
LA.: You are one of the younger Vampire Church Associates - please tell me a bit about yourself and your vampirism.
Laura: Sure... well I'm 21, a college student majoring in theatre. I work at a hardware store. Life was always kind of isolated for me. See, I always around big groups of people. I like being around people. But, they always seemed to not like me. Or see through me. So I spent a lot of my life watching people. And one of the great realizations I came upon, was that I was not really like them.
LA.: Isolated - that is pretty hard in NY. But, I understand what you mean - alone but in a crowed room.
Laura: I mean I have needs and wants, I cry and I bleed, and I hurt and I love. But, somehow, differently.
LA.: How do you deal with the energy of that?
Laura: It actually worked almost as a natural shield for me, looking back. I was able to take energy from others while they played or worked in the class and they were none the wiser, because they were not paying attention to me. Or while they were making fun of me, they were so convinced that they were in control of the situation that I could just take the energy right out of their stream of disdain. So I guess things work out for my favor in the end, lol.
LA.: So then, your primary energy source is Psi energy?
Laura: Actually, my primary source is Elemental. I have always felt a kinship with Nature.
While I was very shy and socially awkward, I found refuge and love in the wind, rain and sky.
I spent a lot of time outdoors in my backyard. I had a little garden. I always felt stronger and happier there.
LA.: Very understandable. Many Elementals also have an environmental connection. Do you feel that as well? Are you connected to city life energy?
Laura: Well, I can always seem to find the green in the gray, so to speak. What I mean is if I am in an urban situation, I feel pulled to the parts that have grass or trees. I definitely feel the pulse of my environment around me.
LA.: Cool - there is actually quite a lot of wild nature in big cities.
LA.: You mentioned that you are a theater major ...
Laura: Yes …
LA.: …on or behind the stage?
Laura: … both actually, I get the best of all. I have been involved with theatre since pre-school.
LA.: Cool. I do stagehand work myself, so I know the energy there is pure electric - describe it for others would you please?
Laura: Well, imagine if you will a dark room with a pool of light, and you are standing in the light and there are people all around in the dark and they are staring at that light. And, slowly you realize that the light is you. Everything just throbs with energy and you draw it all in until you feel like one big glowing orb. And the stage conducts this energy. Or else, it creeps along the stage into you and it hums all throughout your body and soul.
LA.: Humm that sounds like center stage. Part of the theater energy is a great team - how does working with that energy help you?
Laura: It helps me with empathic feeding greatly. It helps get me accustomed to many distracting conflicting energies coming at me all at once. From there I have to pick out what will benefit my needs and what will be grizzly, so to speak. Also, it helps my focus. I can multi-task; feed while going through a complex action.
LA.: You are right - there is a constant mix there of all kinds of energies.
LA.: You said "grizzly" energy. What is your description of unuseful energy?
Laura: Unuseful energy for me is extreme negative energy. My makeup is not accustomed to it and nine times out of ten rejects it. Chaotic energy is a fifty/fifty with me. I find my most beneficial energies are elemental (fire and earth) and tantric energy.
LA.: you are not alone in that. Many vampires can relate I am sure. So what do you find to be your most stimulating energy source?
Laura: Tantric energy with a lover that involves mutual trust and feelings or elemental energy from fire.
LA.: Ah the old mutual trust part - that is a hard one. Do you feel you accomplish that in your relationship? Does he know you are a vampire?
Laura: Yes I do. *glows happily* He does know and he is supportive. He has agreed to be my source.
LA.: And how did he handle it?
Laura: Very well. He grasped the concept quite easily and even asked me more questions about my vampirism.
LA.: That is very cool - I keeper I would say.
Laura: Lol, yes indeed.
LA.: What brought you to the VC Laura?
Laura: Well, I had been searching for answers to my constant fatigue, depressive bouts (but not depression), aggressiveness. I also wondered why the only thing that ever made me feel better was during brief involvement in a coven-like group, was people transferring energy with me. Except I was not giving back to them. And I found these articles on psychic vampirism. I thought to myself, this is not me, I'm not a predator. So I searched under "real vampires" and lo and behold! The Vampire Church was there. I was impressed and hung around for about a year. After which I applied for Associate. The rest I guess is history.
LA.: Ah then you have seen some of the writings out there that are not vampire friendly. How do you deal with that on line and real life?
Laura: I sure have. And I hate to say, some of it has been earned by irresponsible members of the community. I am just patient with people. I have learned that lashing out in anger is unproductive, at best. I take the path of informing and educating.
LA.: Always a good road to take.
Laura: It's the tougher one, lol.
LA.: You participate in offline meetings as well. How does that go?
Laura: It's a lot of fun! I really enjoy getting to see people's faces. Not to mention having one-on-one with them in the energy-sense
LA.: That is the best isn’t it?
Laura: Indeedy.
LA.: I’ve heard that there is cheese cake involved.
Laura: lol. Oh there is cheese-cake. We meet at a nice coffee house.
LA.: Coffee houses are great places for decent energy.
Laura: It's easy to keep a low profile there while being able to discuss what we need to talk about.
LA.: Good spot
Laura: The one we go to is lovely. Nice neutral energy base.
LA.: So is it a just vampire group that meets?
Laura: We are open to donors and black swans (supporters of vampiric folks). While I am not closeted about my vampirism, I don't feel the need to write "vampire" across my head.
LA.: That can be wise. But do you feel you fit any of the so called classic vampire stereo types?
Laura: Lol - I am very sexy.
LA.: lol - fun to know
Laura: Honestly, I have a reflection, I love garlic, I have crossed running water and despite my attempts to turn into a bat, I am unsuccessful. But I am quite pale. But that's because I have a sun/heat allergy. I know how lame that sounds.
LA.: Darn no bat wings?
Laura: Lol, no, no wings.
LA.: But living near NYC I am sure you get a snoot full of the vamp wannabe / vamp lifestylers. How do you feel about that and how do you handle it?
Laura: YeeHah! You bet I do. I get about ten emails a day asking if I can "turn" someone. I am flattered sometimes. Lol. But really, it's amusing the first three times and after that I just kind of send them the old "vampires-cannot-be-made" spiel. I try to get through to some of them. Sometimes it works, sometimes not. Funnily enough, I've gotten email back from some of these people, telling me I couldn't possibly be a vampire since I have no idea what vampires are.
LA.: Yea I can understand that - education is a big part of what the VC does. How do you see yourself in that role - as educator and how has the VC helped educate you as well?
Laura: Well, the VC helped me get a solid jumping off point about the founding basics of vampirism. I knew I was doing something, but I never knew what to call it until I came to VC.
LA.: I see - cool.
Laura: Some people have told me that I would make a great Elder when I get older or some such like that, but I could never see myself as an "Elder" per say. No matter how much I learn or how much experience I have as a vampire, I'm still in the same boat as everyone else. I am still learning about myself and my vampirism.
LA.: You are young - where do you see yourself then in say 5-10years? Still with the VC ?
Laura: I think that learning is a four way street. Two people teach and two people learn. Except there's only two people. Lol.
LA.: There is an old saying, “To learn twice - teach.”
Laura: I think so. I feel that VC is a great opportunity for learning and teaching. I see myself as having five to ten more years to offer to others. Hopefully a bit wise, and a bit more tempered.
LA.: Cool - we certainly enjoy having you as an Associate member here - it enriches us all.
Laura: Well, it's a pleasure.
LA.: It is good to have people that are so actively involved
Laura: I am happy to be able to be part of this group.
LA.: One last question - seeing it is summer any you are an all-American girl.
Laura: Lol
LA.: What is your favorite ice cream flavor and the best thing energy wise about eating ice cream?
Laura: Fav ice cream flavor has to be peach. Best thing energy wise about eating ice
cream is that it is a great model for feeding.
LA.: How so?
Laura: Your spoon is the extension of your energy that you reach out for the energy around you with, aka the ice cream. You take the ice cream (energy) in your energy tendril (spoon) and you incorporate it into your digestive track (own energy)
LA.: Great analogy! It has been fun - and I have certainly enjoyed having you here of this interview. Thanks
Laura: Thanks muchly LA for having me here tonight.